Guess now I have too much to share here now, somehow sometimes I can't post something like I wish in some social media, sometimes it will have some impact... the platform that I used to have to express my feelings were not there anymore, so I have to wander back here, back to something I used to have and someone would not pay notice at all...
Finally I made my decision, to wander away to Penang to continue my studies there. A lot of people asked me, with your results, you deserved better than this, or you should be going overseas to study, get a scholarship and just study there, everything the JPA will take care of it. Well, I guess I see things alot different than others... It's always a challenge to study abroad, and this will be the challenge I will not take... You can say me coward or anything, but I just don't have the "urge" to tell me, "hey Mun Yew, go study abroad, your future lies there..." Upon getting offers from USM, I almost came to a decision to study in Sunway for the course Acturial Science, yet somehow alot of unnecessary thinking crossed over my mind, and somehow one day this decision comes to my mind, "Let's go Penang study, since studying abroad is so much a challenge, why don't study away from KL, take this challenge, learn to live by yourself for some time.. well, just 3 years though... " and so well, going study in USM becomes my destination....
Lately, I really rarely express my true feelings to someone, in fact everyone... Everyone thinks matters in their very own way, and sometimes they just could not understand how the way I'm thinking sometimes, and I accept that. So, often I just keep myself silence. Yes, I like to make jokes, I like to talk craps sometimes, yet to everyone, I'm just someone who is just that. Alot of struggles inside me they can't see, alot of loneliness inside me they can't feel and alot of disappointment inside me they can't sense... Often, I'm the one who talks one through their problems, sharing some thoughts with the situation they are facing and someone who can be there anytime for any outing...
Had a fun time with my classmates and the extra one Xian Ming during our class trip to Sunway Lagoon. It has been a long time since I'm there and it looked so different now. Nevertheless, we still having a great time inside there. The game that had leave an impression to me is that Scream Park. I had to admit sometime it does scare me but still not that scary yet.. I remembered the two Malay girls in front of us are just so scared they just won't move at some point, and we have to push her ahead... The next day we went steamboat at Matthew's house and probably it might be the last time for this year for a bunch of us gather together and talking some stuffs together. I won't forget all the fun while having with them during the pre-u period. I'm still shocked to find out I was still known as the "monitor" of the class... Really appreciate that...
People come and go, you will never know which people you will meet in the next second. Cherish the moment you while you can with the people you like, don't wait until the very last second, when things could not turn around anymore, only you start to regret for it... In some occasion, time wait people, but most occasion, time does not wait for you...
~munyew~
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