犹豫

有些决定，不是说要就要，不是就不是。

人生，很多人都说人生是掌握在自己手里，只要努力，就会有出头的一天。只要肯挨，就会有成功的一天。但事实就是如此吗？很多人奋力苦斗那么多年，只为了小小的成果，但偏偏就不得志。这是命运吗？

很多人用成绩来和成功作对比。有好的成绩就代表你成功吗？看看Bill Gates和Steve Jobs，他们并没有卓越的成绩，但偏偏一位是世界上最富有的人，另一位则是智能平板电脑和手机，Apple苹果的创办人。

Success is a lousy teacher. It seduces smart people into thinking they can't lose.
-Bill Gates-

 成功固然好，但往往就因你次次都成功，变得骄傲，觉得自己已是最顶尖的，然而忽略了那些在后面等着一个机会的竞争者。学而逆水行舟，不进则退。失败不代表你永远会失败，纠正因有了失败的经历，让你弄清你的弱点，改正你的弱处，使你更加无敌。

~munyew~

Updates...

It's our nature: Human beings like success but they hate successful people...

Somehow this quote is true enough to reflect the people nowadays. Everybody work hard to success, but when they see another person succeed without going through any hard work, they began to jealous. Somehow that applies to me. I think that's why I don't really attract much likes...

To be honest, I do jealous about some other people's achievement that I can't reach. It's normal I guess but I don't hate the person. That's the difference. I envy that they have the ability or possess this field of talent. Frankly speaking, I still envy people that learn music. The way they play the musical instrument, the way they can understand the symbol on the music score, the way they communicate with another people discussing about the music they have played...

Getting back the results one by one. The results are not bad actually. I think semester 2 exams are far more easier than semester 1 exams. I guess this time more people can achieve better result than last time. =) Yet, people still misjudge me. Somehow when I tried to teach some of them to do the question in the correct way or showing them a better approach to the answer, the answer I get will be like "yea la yea la, know you pro la. ____ gets so high mark." And whenever I refused to tell my result, they said I LC d and when I do tell, they said me pro d lo. Somehow this makes me question myself again, do I have to get a low grade so that I can mix around with people in the sense of when talking about studies.....

I realised one fact, people gets super emo or down when they didn't get a the result they expected. Why emo? It doesn't mean that you gets a bad grade now and in the future you won't get a better score. I understand that certain people had put in lotsa effort and expects immediate or a certain level of return, but do gets this concept correct, it doesn't mean that when you didn't get good grades and all your effort is wasted, it just simply means you just have the wrong approach when comes to answering. In my opinion, I think that examination is the best way you can get corrected and learn to write it in a correct way. So an advice to all people, don't get sad when you didn't score a certain subject, instead realise your mistake and correct that mistake and eventually you can achieve what you want.

Yesterday was Speech Day. Been attending to this event for already 6 years. As usual in the morning all the board members were the "Guard of Honour" and stand in lines waiting for the arrival of guest. This year nothing special again, getting prizes, watched performance. Well only difference is I didn't take a single photo again for this event, apart of those who asked me to take photograph with them. What surprised me was that all performance was from the form6. Except the choral speaking from the form 5 set 1 English student, none of them really come from form 5 students. Ain't the teachers who complained that form6 result aint that good yet still want them to perform for this kind of event.

Went to Iron Man 3 later that. Good show, but got some part that is not really makes sense. Anyway still a good movie though I guess. Later went to Zhi Yi at night to kacau him. At the end Matt and Joanne playing maple the others was like.... boring. LOL

~munyew~

no mood

recently a lot of things I wanna share it here, but somehow when it comes to typing out I feel lazy. This is so not me anymore..

Perhaps I should find my mood of blogging back.. soon...

~munyew~

no mood

recently a lot of things I wanna share it here, but somehow when it comes to typing out I feel lazy. This is so not me anymore..

Perhaps I should find my mood of blogging back.. soon...

~munyew~

Chemistry

Still got 2 papers to go... PA & Econs.. Go go go! -_-

Chemistry. Done a lot of mistakes. 1st thing teacher told me after the IT paper which is after chemistry paper is that, "Mun Yew, why you wrong the 1st question?" LOL! Hopefully still can get a B...

Had a great one-to-one talk session with Zhi Yi where we pointed out some weaknesses of our respective board here and there.

~munyew~

Weekends

It seems like weekends is not a popular day to have revision. Tried my best to get out my notes and revise chemistry but it failed somehow. Guess the kick only comes around midnight? Have to speed up now if not won't have time to try some questions....

Get to know Form 6 will be exempted from duties for tomorrow due to exam. Should I go for it then? It's not like I wanna duty so badly, it's the responsibilities. We usually don't even get exam leaves for these kind of exam but only for like major exam for instant Sem3 exam, SPM or so on. What I think is, what makes us be so unique that even trials we are exempted? Then other students will ask for an excuse to have their duties off too next time during trials. I dunno why, I'm not the authority again... Let's see whether will I be going for duty tomorrow.

I hope I wasn't the one making the whole stories up. Tell me if you need to. Waiting...

~munyew~

Combined Board's Day 2013

It's Combined Board's Day again! Every year this is one of the events everyone is waiting for... Performances, games, interaction and etc...

Well before the CBD thingy we Form 6 were actually having trials actually. Physics and Maths, can't really say it's hard but still moderate. Hopefully can get a better score than last term. =X

So after rushing having the exams we were asked to help to arrange the table or should I say stack the tables to aside and carried it to another classroom so that they can have their hall arrangement done for CBD.

To be honest, I'm quite disappointed with this year CBD despite the other seniors saying "Goob Joob", "Well Done" to the organising committee. Not to criticise what were actually happening to them but I think the event COULD be better in the sense of every aspect. Don't feel like criticising the event here. It's like revealing our own injuries to others. Anyway I wanted to point out some points they really did not do really well.

Firstly, hall decoration. I dunno why they were given quite a number of budget and yet there were no hall decoration AT ALL. Well apart from the board design (which I think is too simple compared to previous year), and abit of decoration at the registration counter there, the whole hall basically don't have any decoration at all.

Secondly the games, no doubt playing water is fun but not everyone will participate in it. The purposes of having this event is to improve the interaction between the boards of different school apart of having fun. I noticed there are people who don't participate at all. Furthermore this water war game already held for two consecutive years and yet this year they want to have it again. I really think they should change, at least having some games that can really involve everybody in it.

Guess the main problems are that, if I keep pointing out the weaknesses guess next year no one wanna come d. Anyway still have to congratulate the whole organising committee though, for making it, well quite a success. At least the students come are having fun.

This year CBD, didn't involve myself in the preparation, except on the day itself before the event start I tried my best to point out something and make it better. Too busybody you can I am, but if I'm not busybody guess that's not me anymore. Also, this year didn't take a single photo during CBD apart from the group photo. Yea, not a single photo either with friends or seniors. Well, can't really say I don't mind but just get little jealous when you saw all your friends were asked for a photo but yet the one who is beside which is me was gone unnoticed. I guess I'm not those person who really attract camera attention then. XD Some said I'm not at the right place at the right timing, is it true? Because the moment they were taking photos I was actually just somewhere around. Guess I will be the one who was always being overlooked. In a way I should be happy, I managed to keep a low profile for myself.

This is the only photo I have takne throughout the whole CBD. And the only photo that include me or having me inside...

Spot me. ;)

After CBD went for dinner at Times Square. Had a fun time camwhoring in the "Food & Tea" restaurant. I think people think we are insane.. HAHA

Tired the whole day... Went to sleep straight back home after bath...

And yea today went for football. First time playing football since the day I had quitted Football Club. Among all I think I'm the worst player on the field. And yea it's really me only the suckest player... Anyway I think my performance at 1st half was not quite bad, 2nd half was really really bad =( Boots spoiled, don't think I'm gonna buy a new one. Now legs cramped. Hopefully can cure within few days.

I knew it'll hard to catch up, and it really requires alot of strength to really keep up. I tried my best. Even though it'll tiring, I will still be chasing even though all these efforts will not be paid off.

~munyew~ 

Trials

It's already trials. Shouldn't be spending much time thinking unnecessary things and create so much problem to myself. Thinking too much sometimes really kills, especially when you tend to think those things that will never ever happened and yet you are dreaming it to happen every single second.

Haven't been really study much lately like Jia Bau did. Praise for his effort. He fully deserved for what he had achieved. I gotta start changing...

First paper Physics and Maths T. Feel alright Maths T but not really okay with Physics. Just do the best...

~munyew~

postponed

exam postponed. Why? It just give me no reason to slack or no reason not to score well in this time exam. =(

~munyew~

Wrong timing

Not the timing yet. I keep on telling myself. It's just not the timing yet....

I guess now everyone has been facing like relationship problems. Just got to know even Wey Luek was having this kind of problem too after reading his blog. I was like wow, okay, quite a sad case actually..

Not going to further elaborate more. Trials is coming, yet I am sleeping like a boss. For your information I just woke up from my night nap. Insane. With PA so many facts to memorise yet I still have the time to slack and sleep. PA gone case. 

Loving someone was hard. What's more challenging is when you have to control your feeling, act like nothing happened to you, and pretend to be "you" and make a joke with everyone.

~munyew~

Crush

Crush.. What kind of crush? Candy crush? Or the crush the one you had on someone?

I dunno since when I started to avoid answer this question to my classmates. Maybe due to some reasons? But I do admit it during my time in tea art camp where they had this crazy "Truth or Dare" session around midnight. Weird huh? Maybe just maybe~

Well I should say, who don't have a crush? Crush doesn't mean to be really like fall in love at first sight, it's just basically like admire that person, and whether you wanna be with the person together is another case. Yeah, I do have a crush. Who? Won't be sharing here or even to anyone. I'm afraid of admitting it sometimes cause yeah the moment my classmates knew about it, BOOM! I think people from MBS would definitely know what'll happen next. Stories twisted here and here, nevermind, rumours spreading here and there, I don't care, but the worst is when people started to take this story and rumours seriously, that's the scary part, until you don't know how to even differentiate them anymore. 

Admitting isn't a easy task. It takes courages. You can say I'm coward but I think I still haven't prepare myself to take a step closer yet. And with the incidents happening in school, I don't even think it's possible to happen now.

Waiting? Hopefully I can wait till that day to come, where I really feel no burden to share anything I wanna to share. 

~munyew~

Pikom PC Fair

Well, at last got my very first own lappy now. Asus A45V series. Well not bad, the person help me add till 6gb RAM, with 500gb ROM and 2 years global warranty. Should be getting this much earlier as my aunt promised to buy a new lappy for my SPM result. Takes a long time huh. Also get my first external hard disk from this PC fair. =) 

PC Fair, always filled with people. Seriously the number of people is like so much and we have to squeeze through here and there while walking. Saw some of my friends working there like Kuan Lim, who was selling the "Papago" product, Wei Yei, ex-BOSL vice chairman selling the external hard disk, then Wen Ying, my camp friend who was working with Maxis. What I rmb most about PC fair, not abut the lappy I get, but is one showgirl asking me to log in my Facebook to like their page and at the end I get only a pen. LOL! I think the showgirl is quite shy cause she was not the kind asking around to like. Maybe I was standing there quite long that's why she dare to ask me?

It really takes me quite a time to get used to this Window 8. Confusing. I prefer Window 7 though. Seriously my lappy isn't touchscreen yet Window 8 features all mend for touchscreen purposes. Can say this lappy has nothing cause they didn't install a single thing into this lappy so I think I have to find some way to install it.

Determination. Guess I don't really own it. All people are fighting their way to score the best mark in the upcoming trials and yet myself still slacking. Maybe getting a new lappy at this time isn't a good choice. Maybe I am just finding another reason to escape the problem. 

I found it hard to share my problems with my friends cause I feel like I don't really trust them. No idea why but just won't pour my feelings towards them even though I desperate need a person to share with. Somehow or other I prefer blogging. Maybe I think that no one will ever look at my blog (since no one comment on the chatbox anymore) and I feel more safe. Trusting people ain't easy. I always have the feeling people would look at me at a kind if they were to find out I'm such a person. I'm afraid people saying out my secret even though they have promised.

Smile while you can, cause you won't know when the moment you won't be smiling again. Emo somehow is not my type, I prefer people saying me just keeping quiet at a corner. Well I just need a moment of silent. Or maybe this is the time I really observe people, or just merely wanna see who actually cares about me. 

Seriously have to get back my study mood now. Orelse this time my PA trials will be "fail" again.

~munyew~

Pressure

Everyone lives in pressure, well who doesn't? Pressure comes from everywhere, parents' expectation, teachers' expectation, society, homework, studies, relationships, work and so much more. How we live by pressure actually? Some people takes it as a positive challenge and push them forward, on the order hand some just can't live under the standard and started to get stressed up in their life. Is it good living under pressure? It depends on the ability of individual to handle the pressure.

Well, feel like posting it a few days ago but just lazy and now I dunno what I wanna post already. Let's start off what was happening lately. Orientation.. Not much of probate came and find me for my signature actually. Am I that scary to look for? I wonder... Anyway my task as as easy as ABC, just decorate the whole paper what.. But managed to ask one of them to perform gwiyomi to me, although a failed one.

Well get to know some news. Maybe that was the reason. Jealousy do kill. Watching people get close but myself don't even dare to take a step closer. Admire people that have such courage to step up and go chase for what they want. I don't have that courage yet. I think I ain't prepare to experience feeling of being a failure. Maybe that was the difference...

Election coming. I don't wanna say any sensitive thing here. But seriously I think BN has taken this too over. Why waste money making so many flags while there are still problems that require this amount of money to solve? Water crisis have gotten serious lately. Why don't use the money to solve the problem instead? The ratio of the blue flag vs the opposition flags is like 10++ to 1.. They even put 3 flags together in one stick. I think if you have done a great job people would definitely vote for you even you dont have a flag there. Nevertheless, I still think that the current government will win the election. Our Prime Minister has done a great job actually..

Dunno what to post anymore. Should have update more frequent..

~munyew~

Chemistry

It's surprise why I chose chemistry as my title today. Well I'm not posting something about chemistry or an experiment relating chemistry. Basically the title will not be relevant with what I am posting.

Speech day. Still feel fortunate that I have been involved in each year Speech Day since form 1. I ain't boasting about how well I did in exam, sorry if this feeling occurs inside you. Normally, I was entitled for the best subject in Maths, well this year it changes. Surprisingly I were to received for the subject of Chemistry after being the only A candidates in STPM first semester. Thought will be getting Physics cause of the trials. Chemistry. Never in my life I would thought I would get the best subject for Chemistry cause frankly speaking, my chemistry ain't really good as Jia Bau.

Once again congratulation to Jia Bau cause he will be receiving a number of prizes during Speech Day. Best subject of Maths T and Physics, T-Mori trust fund education, best student for L6K and etc etc. He fully deserved the prizes he is going to get. He is the type of person who will finish his homework on time, do extra exercises and won't be like doing last minute dash revision before exam. He really excels as a form 6 student. Well done.

People put alot of high expectation on me. Guess this is the time where their spectacles really drops on the floor and smashed into pieces. If only if only. Maybe I should not blame anymore and don't mention anymore. I might get some of the prizes if my PA pass at that time. No complaints to whatsoever now. My effort isn't there. I don't really deserved for it. I don't considered myself as a smart guy or an intellectual guy who knows everything. I may get excellent result but this only applies academically. When it comes to other general knowledge or some other stuffs related about your study path, example my bursary, I know nothing of it. I know nothing about what I can claim or do much more to utilize my bursary fully to maximum. Smart in academic won't bring you far in the society. It just means you are nerd, only know study study study and answer question. This world is not like a question arises, it can be solved like using equation or the way a textbook would ask you to solve it. Application of what you have learned is so much important together with your general knowledge and common sense.

~munyew~

IT period

Seem like it's a trend now to play CS during IT period. Maybe this is the only moment we enjoy the whole day long. Haiz.. homework everyday. Slacking everyday, somehow this become the routine of my life. Trials coming and I still havent done a single revision yet. Everytime I see people doing revision, somehow I feel so ashamed. I should be more hardworking =(

~munyew~

April Fool

It's the first day of April. HEY! IT'S APRIL FOOL! Basically this is the day where you can really prank a person OFFICIALLY without notifying them or anything. Fun huh? I managed to fool 2 people today and one of them was fooled by me 3times using the same trick during the assembly period. Guess who was the lucky person? She is non other than the Miss Ying Shuang whose birthday is also held today aka April Fool! Wooo~~ Happy Birthday birthday girl and we managed to give her a surprise during recess by singing a birthday song and present a cake for her. :3 Happy birthday anyway! I managed to celebrate her birthday early before the day by having a simple lunch with her together with Zhi Yi and Choi Ling. =)

Notice the two small cake? This was her first birthday cake this year. Can't buy a big one cause only 4 of us at that time and won't be able to finish the whole cake.

Anyway been slacking too much though. Have to chiong homework! Grr! Happy April Fool again everyone!

~munyew~